beat the number.

I never thought I was super competitive! I guess I am with a few things like dutch blitz, settlers, charades!! Things like that but when it comes to athletic stuff I have never really cared!! Funny how things change!! hehe

Month 2 last day of week three and I find my self trying to push it to the max! My first month of boot camp was so hard.I started not being able to run for a minute and now find my self running most of the time unless its at the top of the death hill!! I would be a liar if I said I am not proud of my self and my accomplishments! I have been hitting some major millstones in my weight loss! so much so I am willing to let Rich see the scale when I step on it, ha! (Annika has been stepping on the scale after me, she says "awww to fit" meaning aw to big bahahahah)

As woman we deal with constant insecurities. Mine has definitely been my weight over the last 5 years. I am not ashamed to admit when I walk in a room my first reaction is to think I must be the heaviest girl there. I hate diets. I really do there just a set up for falling back into bad eating habits. They build you up to tear you down.
I also lovvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee food! Sweet food, salty food, spicy food, you name it i like it. But aside from the weekend snacking I feel like for the first time I have a handle on it. My need to be healthy and in shape is becoming much more important then my need to eat a chocolate bar. (for those who know me that's huge, i love chocolate!!)

So on to the major weight loss. I am willing to let you in on my numbers!! You can judge if you want! I am over it. I m not proud of the eating habits I created to get where I was! But I am proud that I am busting my butt to be a new Lindsay.

So here it is:
After I left the hospital with Zach I was 210 pounds!!! wowzzers! I did not loose tones of weight before I got pregnant with him which led to more weight! Ouch.
I went down to 195 and sat there for the first 6 months of his life and pretty much sat there for the first 2.5 years of Annika's life! I look back and think why did it take me so long to get motivated!! Truth be told weight loss isn't just about numbers, there is usually a whole lot of other stuff going on.
OK back to numbers, ha! I lost about ten pounds before I started boot camp. Going into boot camp at 185.5.
As the Scale called my name this morning, I was a little nervous hoping to see a good number but trying not to get to excited.
This morning I weighed in at 168 pounds!!! booyah baby!!! My goal is 150 maybe 145 depending on how I look. I was dying to get under that 170 mark it was haunting me!! Haunt me no more!!!!

So feel free to celebrate with me, feel free to join me, feel free to eat, the balls in your court.

Cheers
To my protein shake! (and a tiny bowl of organic mac and cheese to celebrate the number) Grin.